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		|  dennis15
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				| A friend ive known well for 4 years told me that social anxiety disorder was normal behavior that everyone feels shy sometimes. She said this about 3 days ago now i dont even talk to her.
 I had to leave my job because of the panic attacks of being in the crowds that i once knew and was friends with, i worked there 14 years- a supermarket store. And i remember how hard it was for me to finally go back in that store after a long time of just staying in my house, to get groceries. That was hard work. I remember the depression and wanting to end it all many times cause i thought at the time my life was over having lived with epilepsy all my life and now all of a sudden this. I had to leave my home cause i could no longer pay the bills and lived in a hotel till my social worker found me a apartment and get me on disability.
 and she told me its normal behavior!
 
 
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		|  wynslove
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				| `It's not "normal" love.... I know what you mean about wanting it to end, the loneliness, the self hatred because you believe you're "weaker" than others. I know all about panic attacks, depressions, & agoraphobia. My agoraphobia is very mild now. As long as I have someone with me, I'm fine.... I can't go to town by myself though. I am overcome with fear & I am so disgusted with myself for not being able to "fix" it. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone......... xoxo
 
 
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		|  dennis15
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				| `im alot stronger too after years of cognative therapy, dialetical behavior therapy classes, and meds i can walk into a store, walk downtown (which is 2 miles from where i live) or carry a conversation w/ people on the street. i dont see a therapist anymore there was nothing further they could do for me they said but im still on the meds and i have to talk myself into walking out my door sometimes, the meds and the therapist wont cure you , you have to work hard step by step yourself but a therapist helps to counsel you or to listen to you as you make progress. I went from taking zanax like eating m&m's to cutting back on counseling to fighting to live a more mentally healthy life for myself but it took alot of work on my part and years of therapy and classes to get there.
 Im still fighting with it and i have along ways to go but im alot stronger now , I take Ativan for the anxieties, risperdal as a anti-depressant and a mood swing pill that helps keep me stable.
 
 someone once said, "bad news is , time flies but the good news is your the pilot".
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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		|  wynslove
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				| `I tend to believe that I'm as 'fixed' as I'm going to get. I have hard days but I definitely have more good days now. It's my mindset that I don't have to "live" my life the way everyone else wants me too, I'm content for the most part & feel that as long as I'm happy at least 60% of the time..........then I've beaten the demons enough. I know it's not what a lot of people want to see of me but it's not about them... It's about me & what I find comfortable & doable. For the most part I'm happy who I am & how I live. 
 "It's not what people call you that matters......It's what you answer to that does!"
 
 
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				| `I can totally relate, I'm new here btw. It's so hard.. 
 
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